What Happened


Here’s what happened. I got mad. Real mad. My patience took a hiatus and I let it all in. Let what in, you say? The pressure of having no income, my resistance to a service job, the unavailability of said service job, the frustration of having no clients and the ensuing desperation, the relative lack of a social life due to insufficient funds and insufficient friends. All of that. I let it run wild all over my mind, my body….and this blog.

And I felt guilty about it. I felt like I had sullied this precious creation of mine, and in turn disappointed or turned off my readers.

I don’t feel I should apologize though. I can edit or remove a post anytime I want. So if I really want to, I can take the offending post down with one click of the mouse. And I might.

At the moment, however, I offer an explanation. I was frustrated. I’d had it up to “here”. I needed to vent to someone other than my poor boyfriend. I’m not proud of taking it out on you, but that’s what I did. And because of that, I guess I owe it to you now to say that things have improved. With some help, I pulled my head out of my arse and started to make things happen. I’m working like a maniac on starting my business (more on that later), resuming the job search with a fresh perspective and creating some pretty crafty Christmas presents.

I realized something. When I started this blog, I thought it would be a great way to keep everyone informed about what I was up to. What it was like to relocate, to co-habitate, to go from big city to small town. I thought it would be a great way for me to practice writing for other people, and to feel connected with all the friends and family I left behind. I thought, in short, that this blog was for me. And if it’s for me, then I can write whatever I damn well please. This is creation! This is where I’m at today; if you don’t like it, don’t read it. And so forth.

But I was wrong. This blog is not for me. It’s for you. You are the ones who read it, it is your feedback that makes me want to keep writing. And, assuming my writing is powerful enough, it is your mood that is affected by reading it. So if my last entry bummed you out, then I can apologize for that. And I do.

This newfound humility is partially responsible for my silence this week. My other excuse is this whole ‘starting-a-business’ business. I promise to elaborate on that soon.

In the meantime, here’s your blog back.


About Samantha Pollack

In 2010 I abandoned my city-slicker, Bostonian ways in exchange for a life of adventure in Asheville, NC. I'm a book-slaying, cat-owning, olive-loving, trail-running, movie-watching writer and holistic health coach. Hi.
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8 Responses to What Happened

  1. ian strickland says:

    hang in there sammy. moving anywhere, it takes time…

  2. Banana says:

    No sorries, lady! I’d much rather read an honest account of how you are feeling than any sunshine up the bum report of life. So, life is kicking you in the teeth and challenges you right now. Obviously, you know there’s something to be learned from this experience and you know there are people worse off than you and you are grateful for many things, etc, etc… But it also flat out sucks sometimes and, guess what? It’s okay to say so! It’s all part of the human experience so LET’S TALK ABOUT IT. Besides, I think it’s just as important to declare to the Universe what we’re fed up with as it is to visualize and set intentions of what we do want.

    Joy and Pain
    Sunshine,and Rain

    I want to hear it all.

    Break it down for me, Sam…

  3. Aimée Stern says:

    Sam, it takes guts and gusto to put yourself out there, even the not-so-great moments, so I commend you and would most definitely encourage you to keep it up, honesty and all! It always gets better.

    • Thank you. So many words of encouragement today! I just checked out your website and it’s gorgeous! I started making a lot of Christmas presents from scratch this year, and have gained a new appreciation for all things crafty. I signed up.

      • Aimée Stern says:

        Hey thanks, lady! We have been working hard for months now trying to get things rolling, so the moral of the story is just be patient with yourself and it will slowly work itself out. Craftiness is COOL! I’ll be watching for more posts….

  4. eddust says:

    Just loved this… I really like your style, elegant, simple, precise…
    I enjoyed it very much 🙂

    Thanks for blogging…




    • Ed,

      Thank you for reading and for your compliment. I am constantly amazed at how well people respond to the blog.

      I just checked out yours too! I’m working on a Resolutions entry as we speak.

      Thanks again,


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